Reliant...

I have just realised how reliant I really am on people. I had this little appifiny (sp?) today after finding myself home alone and unable to open a bottle of nail polish. Seems trivial but it really got me thinking. Imagine if I lived alone and it were a bottle of pasta sauce...the final ingredient for pasta. Would I have to go without if I were unable to open it? I have also had to miss out on wearing one of my favourite necklaces as I couldnt do up the clip (once again, no one was home to help me)

How do people live alone? I often crave time away from everyone one/thing as to get my own space and gather thoughts. But I couldnt imagine living alone and having to miss out on small opportunities such as the nail polish incident. So what did I do today when confronted with a stubborn bottle of polish? I had to change colours...

That is one thing humans are good at. Adapting to any environment. No matter what the situation, we as humans can get through it (excluding the instance of death if it happens to ourselfs, obviously.)

For example; we can have our hearts broken and move on. It takes some longer than others (using myself as an example) but we eventually get there. We can cause our body harm through self infliction, but we scar and then eventually heal. Our livers and lungs can be damaged by drinking and then smoking, but they eventually heal within time.

The exception to this rule (I have not come across a single rule yet that excludes an exception) is when we are slowly killing our selfs and not healing. Take the broken heart for example. We may not neccessarily be seeing the person who caused us hurt, but they may still be swamping our daily throughts and killing any oppourtunity for future potential with another person. Or another example: we may have tortured our body so much with excessive drinking and drug use that we are dying of a disease and not even know it. Our bodies are so strong, but when is the point we take grieving to the next step and start unknowingly killing our selvs. Im yet to know if we each have a subconscious device installed inside our brains which lets us know when enough is enough.

Some people can be a certain way for years and years and then one day, just stop being that person and change. I am waiting for that part of my brain to develop and then kick in. Where I can stop living in the past and embrace the future fully. This does not apply just to a broken heart or battered body. I would like to apply this to all aspects of my life. This will then see me content with who I am and confident enough to make decisions I wont regret.